a tribute to ayah, abah, papa, dad, abi, walid,and daddy

we often forgot about father. let’s just be honest. when we went to shop, we remember to buy a lipstick to mom but forgot to buy a pair of sports shoe to our father, right?

as a daughter myself, i admit that i always forgot bout my father. not that i do it intentionally but i often called my mom and tend to forget to ask bout my ayah. maaf ye ayah. 😉

(*from here,i called my father ayah, ok?)

ayah is reallllyyyyy a great father. it wasn’t because he is my father but ayah never shows his weak side to us (siblings). i always look up to him for he is a strong man, both inside out. my mum told us that long time ago, before we had our first car (in 90’s), ayah would walk cross the railway to buy us diapers when my sister and i still a baby. he was willing to sacrifice his life for us and this story never fails to make me choke up.

i still remember when mom just gave birth to my younger brother, my father slept beside the drain at the hospital because my brother was diagnosed with jaundice. back then, they didn’t let anybody, even the husband to wait in the ward after the wife delivered the baby (why?????hospital can be cruel! ). so,worried of both my mom n brother ‘s health, ayah decided to slept just beside the drain outside the ward, waiting for my mom n brother.

back in 2009, when i was diagnosed with intercranial hypertension, ayah was willing to go back and forth from work to the hospital where i stay which is about 45km worth of trip just to take turn with my mom to accompany me in the ward. i was touched. (love you, ayah! )

i knew, ayah has done more than what i has wrote here. so,TO AYAH and all dads in this world, here is my LETTER (sort of) to all of you :

ayah,

i knew i have never done enough to repay all of your sacrifices and strength that you has given through out this period of time. you has done a lot for us, you have worked everyday without any grumbles just to feed us and to keep smiles on our face.

and i regretted that i have never done the same for you. i have never achieved anything that can make you proud having me as your daughter and i am terribly sorry for that. i am sorry that i have wasted your precious age to see me to be a successful person and right now i am struggling to be one.

ayah, i hope that it wasn’t too late that i am starting now to achieve what you have been wanted from a daughter. ayah, just wait for me. please wait for another five years, be healthy and insyaallah by that time, i’ll be back with a cert on my hand and believe me that i will hug you hard, ayah.

thank you,ayah. Happy father’s day 😉