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  • le joufflu et big dream 7:43 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply
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    in the verge of breakdown 

    i do think that it isn’t fair for me if i said that i never smile here,in kmpp..i really think that i have done kmpp a real injustice if i said that i never felt happy being here,try to study hard while pursuing my dream..

    BUT

    i am indeed a pathetic human being if i also lied to myself,telling that i have never been hurt here.it is also the biggest lie i have ever commit if i said that i never burst out in tears while i’m here.

    RIGHT NOW

    my heart hurt so much that even tearing up will never heal it.what have i felt,what i am feeling right now is something new to me.yes,if some people ask me,are you a cry-baby?yes..i would say yes.it isn’t that i’m being a coward,unable to share my feeling with others,it isn’t that i have never tried to tell others what i have been feeling.

    FOR ME

    rather than hurting someone else,i rather hurt my feeling.rather than seeing others cried,i rather crying myself.rather than seeing tears bulking on their eyes,i rather bloated in the next morning with eye-bag under my eyes.rather than telling a hurtful truth,i rather lie to myself,keep the truth to myself.rather than showing others my eyes filled with tears,i rather crying in the bathroom,crying without any sound that it hurt my heart so much.rather than seeing others feeling uneasy,uncomfortable around me,i rather filled myself with all those unbearable feelings until it ‘choke’ me.

    IT ISN’T THAT

    i’m trying to show everyone how good i am,how patient i am.it just that what i have did in order to see others smiling without any insecurities. because i knew how hurt it is when you are hurt,i didn’t want others to encounter what i have encountered,i didn’t want others to feel something that will break their heart into pieces.i’m not being holy here,just want to share how i felt.that’s all..i might ended up pilling up all those unbearable feelings,but it worth it seeing them smile.that’s just how i am.a typical heroic act that not many people understand but i bet there are many who would have done the same.

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    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 7:48 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      love this!!! seeee my yuhanis is back!! to compare your posts with mine mcm langit dgn bumi. i wrote silly things u posted something so meaningful. bak kata org blog x berfaedah. ok la u inspire me to write smtg like this too in future. maybe about my crush?? hu la la

      • haniclover 8:00 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        hukhukhuk..i’m still lacking la..don’t say that..actually,honestly,you are the one who inspires me to write again taw..kalau x,mmg dh lama this blog will be left with nothing to read from it…oh!!!!please write it..can’t wait to read it…who said blog xberfaedah???let me punch them in their face…!!!!!

    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 7:52 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      don’t breakdown yet!!! Those people do not deserve your tears la!! Just few days more yuhanis!!! Hwaaaiting!

      • haniclover 8:02 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        thanks love for your encouraging words..i promise i’ll stay strong….you are right,they didn’t worth a bottle of clinique that i might have to buy if i cry again…it going to cost me like my monthly allowance ^^

    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 8:06 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      i forgot you’re using clinique. pheewwwwit hehe. i’m using eversoft je. sbb dia ada satu jenis je so i dont hv to bother myself with those toner, moisturizer bla bla pemalas gila patut la muka banyak biji. hehe. oh ramai yg ckp blog sy x berfaedah tau. mereka ialah, saya darab 100000. Heee. u can’t wait to read my post? you’re too kind sweetie pie.

      • haniclover 8:09 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        hey..just kidding la..how can me,someone that is soooooo a cheapskate (bak kata best friend sy tuh…fariza azrina),can buy a bottle of clinique???neutrogena je lah..hehehe..hey,ur skin is better than mine…seriously…i’m not that kind,i’m just being honest…i really cant wait for ur next post..hahaha..if u said it urself,it wasn’t count

    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 8:13 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      oh yess neutrogena!!! Still mahal la! hehe. eversoft RM6 smtg2 je taaau hahahaha cheapskate & pemalas tahap gaban. i can’t wait for my next post too but i’m suppose to study nooow!!!!! aiyarrrrkkk u know my lecturer said whoever get C and below she’ll call out our names! scarrrrry! tp still x berganjak dari dpn lappy ni. masalah betul

      • haniclover 8:17 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        hahahaha..but i barely bought it every month though..tambah2 study week ni,its not that i use it everyday..eh,if im the one that keep you dpan lappy,im sorry..it’s ok..you can go study now..no more post tonight..hehehe..dh xdak smething happen,so,no thing can inspire me right now..hehehe..

    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 8:30 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      ala sedihnya i dont inspire u. eh? tiba-tiba pulak haha

      • haniclover 9:12 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        eh???why u said that???

      • haniclover 9:14 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        not that laaaa…hish2..dont think like that..i didnt mean it..just afraid that u might xstudy,asyik bca blog sy yg xberfaedah ni..n one more thing,takot bnyk sgt post hari ni..smpai 3 post..kang nnti,u r the one that will get bored kn???? ^^

  • le joufflu et big dream 9:02 am on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply
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    5 days to go 

    been counting days,hours,minutes,seconds and even milliseconds..actually just finished packing all my stuff yesterday..the only things left are 4 baju kurung,few tees,trousers and books..

    the red bag is full of tees and trousers + jeans,the blue bag is full of baju kurung…

    and this is my mini-station..hehehe..actually this is where i sat and study while listening to music..

    and this is the messiest place..where i put everything here..from books,mags,files, to my make up stuff..LOL

    and this is..quite shabby eyh???this is where i slept for the past 10 months…looks pathetic but just bear with it…LOL

    and this last picture..i have been fighting with myself whether i’m going to reveal it or not..this is quite a shameful picture..for those who’s viewing this post,please ignore it after 0.05 second you saw this..o my God..after this,i’m pretty sure all those mothers out there will never want to have an in-law like me..but please do trust me..i’m not usually like this..just that,just few days left..have no energy to spare rather than to study and packing up..

    so,that’s all the pictures i have..now i just have that much amount of pride to spare…can believe that i’m going to upload this..for the sake of reality..then..this is it..

    p/s:sorry to my friend that actually i promised her to post this yesterday but my broadband is being a *****..

     
    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 5:45 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      Haha this is what we called room! actually i love the messy one like this!!! and banyaknya barang yg nk kena pack and i noticed a sweater hanging there! lawaa. bravo yuhanis you hv make up stuffs i don’t have any!! haha love the butterfly hanger too ^^ and the dinding so classic. overall i love this! two thumbs up!

      • haniclover 6:00 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        hahahaha…the dinding part,i do agree..classic with all the scribble on there,formulae and all that..just books left..with the small table,duvet and small standing fan..that’s all..hehehe..even all the baju kurung and tees only took me like 20 minutes to pack it up..so,the rest maybe 15 and half minutes..hikhikhik..kidding..

    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 7:35 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      wah cepatnya. i hate packing!! mine will take at least 38127373 hours to finish. hehe. you’re so good in everything there is nooooo way your mom-in-law will not going to like u 😉

      • haniclover 7:48 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        hey…i’m not that good la…hehehe…eyh,i have not have any in-laws YET la..hikhikhik…sometimes,it is better to take time while doing something rather than rushing it…there’s a saying ‘take your time and you will appreciate everything and everyone around you’

    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 7:50 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      feel like u punch me on my face with your words there. hehe ouch!

      • haniclover 7:57 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

        hey,you knew it wasn’t my intention right????erm..how would i put these into words???hurmm..it is better to pack up and taking hours and did the packing perfectly rather than taking just minutes but then you might forget to pack up something and left it in your room..and ended up kena siku dgn parents..kn???

    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 8:04 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      haha actually i misunderstood your comment just now. i thought u r referring it to marry, marry part. hehehe sowwiieeee

    • ♥ fariza azrina ♥ 8:10 pm on April 21, 2012 Permalink | Reply

      heee my pleasureeeee!!! =) that’s my girl

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